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Welcome to the New Year everyone! I'm so glad 2007 is over, haha. Well now that thats out of the way its down to business. Spirits of the earth and aire. Its a pharse that I can't seem to shake. I heard it once last year as I was waking up. Since then I've seen it twice. Once as part of a made up spell created by Merlin, and the second time as part of a guide to wizards. Also not too long ago I had a dream about a palace set on a cliffside with a river spliting the castle into two halves. It seemed familiar for some reason. This last weekend I found a picture with a similar set up. Madness I know, lol. On a more serious note I just finished helping my parents move to their new house. My dad hates the place right now, but I'm sure it will grow on him. We get a pretty good view of the city and my mom has big plans. I told her we need a fire pit back there, but my brother think we need a fire wall. Which I admit would be totally awesome, I just worry about my dog running into it since she's going blind and all. It's kinda weird having to drive further up Peris too. I want to turn on ironwood so bad, but if I go that way I have to go all the way down to Palm before I can get back up there. I tried taking Kitching once, but the road isnt paved all the way through, which I think is hilarious. Well i'm pretty tired so I think I'll call it quits for today. Night!
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So today I had some very strange dreams, the likes of which I haven't had in a while now. I was asleep on the couch when I felt a sudden pressure on my chest. I thought it was one of the cats at first but I soon realized that wasn't the case because I couldn't open my eyes one bit, not to mention the fact that someone was trying to steal my blankets. The other person tugged my blankets harder and harder trying to drag them underneath the couch. In the end I won and was able topull my blanket all the way back onto the couch. Then it began to feel more and more like a stone was being pressed into me. Not a large stone either, it was small, the shape of an egg, smooth and flat on one side, rounded with designs on the other. I was finally able to grab it and ask whoever was jabbing it into me what it was. At last they let me open my eyes and floating in mid air was a rosy pink gem stone, golden flowers and a pair of wings border the top. It looks like it belonged on a chain at one point. After a few seconds it disappeared. Speaking of wings, it began to feel like I had a pair of them myself. Seeing as I was lying on my back it wasnt very comfortable. Not long after that it felt like I was begin split in two, kinda like astral projection I guess. It all stopped before long, and that was my crazy dream today.
Currently:
weird weird
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You know what I have realized, I have been a terrible English major. I have never managed to read through all of the books that have been assigned to me. I always miss at least one piece. Sometimes it was a small one, sometimes it was a large piece, either way I am terribly disappointed in myself. I use to be so diligent in high school. I have a real passion for learning. Sometime in the last four years the flame that burned so bright inside of me has died out, and I now struggle everyday to relight it. I only hope that I can light it soon before time runs out. There are only two more quarters before graduation, granted thats if I made it through this last one. Everyone thinks I am so smart and they've expected great things from me, but I'm afraid I've let them all down. But I suppose miracles can still happen, if I do exceptionally well in my last two terms I can pull together an acceptable gpa. for grad school. I want to go to grad school to make my parents proud, which makes the thought of failure even scarier. As of now I think I was wise in saying that I would take a year off from school after I graduate. I think if I went straight through I would collapse before I got very far. This way I can study for the GRE's and get a super high score to make up for my pitiful grades. Well that's enough of that for now, I must get back to my last final, which I hope and pray earns me at least one 'A' this term since I don't stand a snowball's chance of earning such a grade in any of my other classes.
Last seen at:
Destiny Islands
Currently:
contemplative contemplative
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Woot! Labor Day weekend was a blast! We took my dad to Catalina Island on Saturday. He was a little nervous at first, but he started to enjoy himself as the day went on. We took a trip on a glass bottom boat and saw lots of fishies. We took a ride on a golf cart and got beat by a dog who passed us running uphill *laughs* Yeah it was funny. Then we ate at an awesome resturant called The Galleon. There were all sorts jazz decorations, but the best part is they had karaoke. On Sunday we went to see The Illusionist, which I highly HIGHLY recommend everyone go see. It's one of the best movies I've seen so far this year. Monday was pretty relaxed. We basically stayed at home and tried to stay cool. This entry is really choppy, but I plan on editing later cause I gotta go to sleep now. TTFN
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Well I have been rearranging my room for most of the day so I decided to take a break. This week has been most productive. I worked lots of over time, yay over time. But that means when I got home I was very tired and did not want to do much of anything else *laughs* I became a couch potato for a few hours then I went to bed. The next day I woke up early and did the whole thing again. Not that I mind, work is a lot of fun and I'm finally getting the hang of things now. My brother has lent me his guitar so that I can learn how to play. It's kinda hard when you're trying to learn all on your own, but I am making some progress. I've learned a few chords, and the opening sequence to one song, and I'm very proud of myself for doing so. Today I also looked at a few of my friends journals for the first time in months. It looks like they've just start their journals up again too *laughs. It's kinda funny how we all quit and then come back. Anyways I've some progress in KH2 but I still have a long way to go. I guess all the waiting I did made me indifferent to the game and I'm in no hurry to play. Don't get me wrong, KH2 is a great game, but I just don't feel the need to play it everyday for hours on end. I'll finish the game eventually *smiles. Next week we'll find out if my dad needs to go back to the hospital and get surgery again. He's a little stressed about that. I know he's worried that he'll get really sick again, but I think it will be alright. Let's see what else...what else...I haven't really talked to anyone. Peoples are on vacation now *nods*. This weekend is my birthday, yay for me! :D Nothing special planned right now. Most likely we'll just a small dinner and watch some movies. Thrilling I know, but hey I think its fun. Friends and family gathered around the tele eating popcorn, and telling jokes during the movie, good times...good times. Oooo look I wasted lots of time. I better finish cleaning so I can start cooking dinner. Until next time!
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Seems like my last entry was a life time ago. March is nothing but ancient history now. So much has happened in the last few month's that much of it has blurred itself within the confines of my memory. School ended and I officially became a senior in the eyes of the university. Only one more year of classes left before I am unleashed into the real world. I only hope that the world is ready for me. I can't really tell you anything else that happened in Marhc, April, May, or June, however I can tell you all about July. July had to be the worst month in the history of month's I have known so far this year. My dad went into the hospital for major surgery to remove part of his large intestine. He was only suppose to stay for a few days o recover, suppose being the key word here. Complication after complication arose, leaving us to prepare for the worst and hope for the best. My mom of course tried to keep it all in, however once she broke down during sunday mass, I knew she wasn't doing well. I tried to go back to town as often as possible to see my dad in the hospital, and support my mom at home. That proved difficult since money was extremely tight. My dad hadn't been to work since the start of the year to begin with due to pyschological problems (he's bi-polar and was heading for a bad spell of depression), as well as physical handicaps (the disks in his back are fuseing). My mom was the only one working, and I had barely started to work. As the weeks passed my mom stopped going to work completely, leaving me the only member of my family working and bringing in an income. Fortunately my dad was released from the hospital last week. He still has to have a nurse see him twice a day to change his bandages, yet the most important fact is that he is home. My mom has been ordered to stay home and look after my dad for the next three months, and has been given some medicine due to the high levels of stress she is undergoing. Through it all my brother and sister seemed to weather out the storm fairly well. Okay so my brother developed a stomach bacteria which causes ulcers and my sisters imune system isn't very strong right now, and I kinda cut myself off from people, but other then that we are fine. Not to worry though, this month is going much better. I don't really have to pay rent because the leasing office made a mistake in my refund paperwork, my birthday is coming up (I already recieved a gift from a good friend), and I'll have a nice fat paycheck for all the hours I worked. Plus I got to go to the OC fair before it left and I finally saw Superman Returns. Christy took me to the fair to cheer me up, and I must say it worked wonders. We went on several rides, most of which I would have never gone on in the first place, and had lots of good laughs. Superman was just awesome. If you haven't seen it yet I recomend you do so, its just...when you leave you say WOW! Oh I saw Pirates too, that was a fairly good movie. Not the greatest, but definitely worth a trip to the theater. Poor Jack was eaten. Or was he? I wonder how it is they are going to save him. Only time will tell I suppose. I've heard the third movie is due to come out before the year ends. On the other hand I've heard that we have to wait until next year. If it comes out next year though, it will have to compete with Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoneix. And if it comes out this year it will have to deal with Eragon and my dragon. Speaking of Harry Potter and Eragon, the final book is said to be done this year and published next, the same thing is rumored to happen with the last novel of Eragon. If that's true the competion will be really tough. Once the last books for both series come out though I'll have to find something else to read, a fact which is both sad and exciting. I've already started looking around the bookstores, but nothing else has caught my attenion yet. Anyways I think I've rambled on enough for one day. This entry does not even begin to scratch the surface of all the events that have taken place over the past few months, but I believe there is enough here to give those who are reaing a general idea of whats happened. What matters now is that I'm back to my cheer self for the most part, and I'm eager to find out what the world has been up to while I was hiding. Until next time!
Last seen at:
Destiny Islands
My symphony:
Waste-Smash Mouth
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So.....I'm suffering from a serious case of writers block. I have no idea what to say in my paper. Hopefully I'll be able to shake it off in here. Lately I've been really tired. I can't explain it. I've been getting plenty of sleep, but I still feel tired throughout the day. Maybe I'm just suffering from March madness and really need a break from school, even if its a little one. Lately I've been watching cardcaptors again, I totally feel like Sakura does while she's in school after using her magic to make star cards. The only difference of course is that I'm not using magic, well that and I'm not in the fifth grade, lol. Other then that things have been going well. My family is planning a trip to Arizona in May, I'm so excited ^-^ I will have to miss work on Friday, but at least its only one day. It's raining again, I hope it lasts till I fall asleep. I just love to have the rain sing me to sleep, lol. I can't wait for spring to actually get here though. I'm starting to miss the sun, what can I say I was born in the middle of August, I'm a full fledged sun child. Sun also means that I can swim, roller blade, and practice tennis. I need to practice because Christy wants to play against me so I have to be decent when we finally do. My mom was accepted into Grad School at Cal State SB. Im so proud of her ^-^ My dad is finally going back to school too. He says he's given me enough of a head start. My brother starts art school in the fall. He's going to come live with me which means I get to play with all his cool toys again, lol. My sister only has one more year in high school. She isn't sure where she wants to go anymore. She started crying the other night because she is afraid to leave home. She's worried about my dad, about not seeing danny, my mom or me anymore. My mom says she cried herself to sleep that nnight. I talked to her and asked her what was wrong and she said she didnt know. I couldnt help laughing a little bit because she has always said that she wants to travel far away. I don't think that will happen anymore. I told her I was sad she was staying close to home because I was depending on her to provide me with a vacation spot during breaks. That made her laugh. I miss my college buddies, they just dont talk to me anymore. They are always so busy studying that they dont seem to have time for fun anymore. Its very sad I know, but what can you do. At least I still have Cassie and Christy to talk to online. I've also become addicted to several role playing forums which help pass the time. Well, I think I have wasted enough time. Back to my paper. Until our paths cross again, Bye!
Currently:
geeky geeky
My symphony:
Hold On-Good Charlotte
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today was a very unproductive day, and i just cant get into the mood to read. and there is so much to read too. but what do i do, i come to write in my lj, lol. oh well. only one class tomorrow from 9 to 10. anyways yesterday was lots of fun. i drove up to christys house friday night and when i got there we watched return of the king. we almost got her dad to watch too, but he said he was tired and he didnt want to stay up till one in the morning watching tv. christy told him that she only watches because i like lord of the rings, and i told her of course because its like a history lesson, lol. and well thats basically what it is. a record of events that "happened" in days long ago. after the movie we talked till nearly three about what we used to do as kids before finally turning in for the night. in the morning i met her nephew who is now two years old. he wasnt too fond of me at first, lol. in fact he was rather shy around me. but once he discovered i liked to play with his toys he didnt mind me too much. christy's mum cooked us up some french toast eggs and ham for brunch because by the time we came down to eat it was already going to be noon. well!! we were up late, lol. after we ate we went back up stairs to get dressed and figure out to do with the rest of our day. we ended up talking about random things most of the time, but we finally concluded that we would play miniture golf then go watch a movie. mini golf was soo much fun. we both sucked, but we had fun playing horribly together,lol. we played both of the courses and as we were finishing up the second course we aquired two more balls. sooo we did the right thing and played another round of golf, lol. come on now, you cant waste perfectly good golf balls by turning them in. in the end i won some how, and we headed back to her house. when we got there we wasted some time before the movie by building a killer golf course on neopets. we dont even know if anyone can actually play it. oh well, lol. christy's mom popped in to say we had better leave or we would miss the movie. fortunately when we got to the theater they were still playing previews so we didnt miss much. we saw the weather man, which wasnt too bad. it had its funny moments and its slow moments. so over all i guess it was a good mive. afterwards we ate at applebee's, then it was back to the house where i packed up me things and headed on home. they wanted me to stay another day, and christy didnt want me to leave at all, lol. she even said i should transfer to ucsb so i could live with her. she said she would even help me move,lol. i told her maybe after graduation i'd go live with her. that would be so fun *mind wanders* yes, that would be lots of fun. but not yet. they were both afraid that something bad might happen to me since i was leaving late at night. but i promised to call and im christy as soon as i got home, and that made them feel better.i told my parents jokingly that christy's family would let me live with them and my dad didnt like that idea too much. i have to say that its much closer then san francisco, which is where i would go if i stick with jumpstart. but im not sure what im doing anymore. i have thought about writing, but i guess im afraid that im not good enough to be a writer.what if everyone hates my work, then what? blah, i have to figure out something soon. time is not going to slow down for me just because i have no idea what im going to do with the rest of my life. ah! i better get to bed. night
Currently:
loved loved
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Wow its been over a month since I last wrote something. I guess thats because school has taken up most of the time. I had about a week break in between summer session and fall term. I'm glad it wasnt longer though because it was hard to find something to do to fill up the whole day.I think I read most of the time. I think...lol. I cant really remember. Oh well, I guess it wasn't too important. Welcome week was pretty quiet. I went to visit a few friends, helped out at the jumpstart booth, and went to the movies to see the 40 year old virgin. It was pretty funny, especially since I was sitting next to one of my friends from the dorms and she tried to bury her head in my jacket because she was embarrassed about some of the scenes. Then school started, FINALLY!!! I was trying to add a stats class and had been on the wait list forever. The teacher had said that everyone on the waitlist would be added automatically, and that everyone else would have to use an add card. So I thought cool, I should be added in the next few days. After a week I still wasnt added, and he signed everyones add card. WHen I asked him about the people online he said that they wouldnt be added at all. I was soo mad. I mean the class isnt that important. I could fulfill my math req. anytime. However I had wasted four hours of time that I could have used to read for my two crit. classes. Grrrr!!!! Whatever. That class was sooo boring, I almost fell asleep during both classes I went to. He talked in a very monotone voice, and went over the same material everytime. It was like I was stuck in time. Luckily the professor in the next class wakes me up before I have to run over to my Austen class. We sit there and criticize critics who criticize literature. Its great fun. We've already looked at Gorgias, Plato, Cicero, Aristotle, and Horace. Some of their ideas are great mind you. I mean people still follow the ground work they laid down when they write novels, poem, and screen plays. But other ideas are rather amusing. For example, Gorgias claims that if a rhetorician can touch you in such a way that you would do whatever they said, even if they said to hurt yourself, them you are not at fault for your actions. Thats like saying "The devil made me do it. He was so convincing I couldnt help myself. So there's no way its my fault." And Plato said that the gods should only be portrayed as superior being how only cause good things to happen. saying that the gods express emotions of anger,jealously, and love are dangerous to society. I guess I could see where he's coming from. Plato is afraid that people will see the actions of the gods and use it as justification for what they do. Its kinda of like with television today. People, especially kids see what's happening on television or even video games, and think they can do the same thing. However, that doesnt mean that such actions should be banned necessarily. The stories of the gods allow everyone to see that they are not perfect either. That the gods too have emotions that can get away from them from time to time, and that humans should learn from their mistakes. If people are taught that some of the actions are wrong, then they will not fill compelled to copy the gods example. Furthermore, the gods themselves are often punished in some way for their wrong actions. Thus people should take this as a hint. If the gods get in trouble for such deeds, then if you are caught doing the same thing, you will be in even more trouble. Horace has to be my favorite critic right now. He tells writers not if artist were to combine the body of a woman with the tail of a fish, that the artist would be laughed at. This is because the subject matter is so far fetched that no one would take a liking to it. Poor horace would die today if he saw modern paintings *laughs. Ah well, he goes on to say that you shouldn't stray from the path. Don't write anything new or you will be shunned by other writes. The only exception to this rule is if you are an exceptional writer. If you have the natural ablility to write extraordinary pieces, then you are allowed to make a small step in the direction of a new genre. He also gives the writer some insider advice about pleasing the audience. Anyways, as I said before, I also have a class completely dedicated to Jane Austen . We are reading half of her works and examining how they have been retold over the years. Its a lot of fun actually. We just finished both the book and the BBC miniseries of Pride and Prejudice. I loved the miniseries, it was so interesting to see the book translated into a movie. Seeing the book on screen allowed me to see the characters in a whole new way. Lets see, what else. Training started for jumpstart once again. I've been talking to people from last year that I never really talked to before. They really are great people. And I believe I'm going to get to know them a whole lot better this year. I've already been invited to a bowling tournament, *laughs. That should be fun. A bowl off between jumpstart teams. I'm the only returner on my team, well besides the team leader. There is actually one whole team with returners from last year. And this year there is one guy on my team, no more all girls team, yay. Sorry, but a team with all girls has way too much drama, lol. Not that I don't love my old teammates. They are fabulous girls. Its just, well nine females together dealing with school, boys and work you know theres tons of drama there, lol. So we have fti on sat, which is 7 long hours of training. And I do mean long. I remember last year, I thought I was going to die. Fortunately, its only one day. Last year was two extra long days of training. Especially since I went to Knotts Scary Farm that saturaday night and got completely soaked from head to toe. That was sooo much fun though, hehe. I dont' think I'll be going this year though. Money is pretty tight, especially now that there is some sort of problem with my financial aid. I could say that I'm not worried, but that would be lying. I don't really know what happened. My dad said that the financial aid office was complaining about his credit. But I was approved for the loan last year. Why on earth would they wait till right now to say something. Thats not right. They should have said I couldn't have the money in the beginning.If I don't get the money, I don't know what I'm going to do. Its a pretty big chunk that I'm missing. So now I'm hoping and praying that everything works out *sigh. Anyways, Christy came down for a party at our friend Joe's house. It was lots of fin. We danced so much that we were sore in the morning. It was good to see everyone again. Halloween weekend I plan on going to see Christy. She is always coming to Irvine, so I figured I could go to see her in Santa Barbara. Other people said they wanted to go at first. But it looks like they all changed their minds. Oh well, I guess I will find out soon enough. Ok, well I think I wasted enough time. I'm going to go do something productive now. See Ya!
Currently:
indescribable indescribable
My symphony:
Lonely No More-Rob Thomas
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Well guess what, I got an A- on my bio test. Guess I didn't need to worry after all. I just felt totally unprepared for the whole thing, so you can imagine how happy I was to learn I not only passed, but I passed with flying colors. I celebrated by going to see The Brothers Grimm. I was a very good movie. I enjoyed myself especially since one of my best friends came down to irvine to watch it with me. She got scared when the crows popped onto the screen. She almost broke Christyn's hand, lol. I got to talk to Cassandra a bit before her internet ban too. I was so happy, I missed talking to her online. And now she's gone again *sigh. I'm sure she'll be back for a few days again. Her mom will cave in and let her on, then change her mind again. That's how it always is. I just hope Cassandra really does move out to Irvine, then we could talk all the time and not have to worry about her mom cutting the internet anymore. I think it would be good for Cassandra to get out of the house too. She could do whatever she wanted out here, and be 100% free. I guess only time will tell. Anyways, I found out she's not single anymore, and I'm not sure thats a good thing. Only becuse she doesn't really love the guy. I mean why be with someone unless you love them right? Even if her crush is taken, she shouldn't have gone for the first guy who asked her out. Oh well, whats done is done. And who knows, maybe she will end up loving this new guy. I just hope he doesn't do anything stupid. Seriously, I'm ready to kill the next person who screws with her. Hmmm maybe I should meet him in person and do some tests to make sure he's ok. No more talking online. That way if I find out he's a bad guy I can toss him out right there and then. So I'm a little protective, every best friend is. I was the same way with Christy when she started dating this guy in our dorm. And it was a good thing too, he had a major drinking problem. Well enough about that, summer session is almost over. Only one more week of classes left! Then its finals, eeekkk. After finals are over I have one week of fun, then fall term starts and the madness begins. I already have meetings for Jumpstart set up, and volunteer activities to do. One is the MS walk in October, another is the Science Fesitval which is also in October. I hope I get to make slime again. But my favorite activity is the Trick -or- Treat for UNICEF. I get to dress up and go trick-or-treating to raise money to help kids all around the world. Its sooo much fun, lol. You get to see lots of interesting costumes too. Well this weekend is labor day weekend, but my family has no idea whats going on, lol. My mom had said that they were thinking about coming to my place to help me move things around. The last of my room mates is coming in a few weeks so everyone here has to make a few adjustments. She had even talked about buying me a laptop, but I don't really think its going to happen. Just like the desk I was suppose to get months ago. I still have the same wobblely table I had in high school. I know I shouldn't complain. I at least have a computer and something to put it on. Its just that when people say they are going to do something, I expect them to...you know...actually do it. When my parents say they are going to get me something, I've learned that they will get it for me,.... just not when they said they would. And sometimes not at all. And I do my best to be patient, to be understanding, and to respect the fact that they have a lot of things on their minds. I mean my dads health isnt the greatest, I'm in college, my brother and sister just got accepted into college, my grandparents are getting older and crazier, and the list goes on and on. Its just... you know...I wish sometimes they would keep to their word. And by that I mean doing things when they say they will. That they wouldn't leave me hanging for months. Ick, I better get to bed. I have to get up early to finish up some homework. Night!
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You're an Archer demon! You're a tough demon, and a
very skilled demon too. You hardly show any of
you emotions around your foes, cause you don't
want them to find a weakness in you. But the
way I see it, you have no weaknesses! Any way,
you skill with the bow & arrow is unmatchable,
and you can hit a fly in 275 yards with out
even killing it. Some people know that you have
excellent skills, so the work with you and
befriend you because of it. But you don't
really care at all. You really perfer to work
alone, cause you don't want your allies getting
hurt. You also have a lot of enemies because of
your superb skills that are always trying to
beat you. But you always outfight them.


What type of a Demon (Warrior) are U??? AWESOME PICS! (Girls only)
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quiz white thought
Thoughtful is your quality. You are a free thinker
who can get caught up in their own daydreams.
Everything makes you wonder. You are curious
and intelligent. While others shy away from
reading and writing you are drawn to it. You
seem to understand things easily so others come
to you when they have questions or can't figure
things out. Though you don't mind being alone,
adrift in your thoughts, you do like a good
conversation full of more than just clothes,
boys, weather, and sports. You tend to be able
to come up with many answers to things and find
faults in the simplest of objects. The bad
quality to you is that you over analyze things.
Your imagination can carry you away and you
sound like you're always right even when you're
not. This doesn't draw in many people so your
friends are few.


Which White Angel are You? (pics included)
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Currently:
silly silly
My symphony:
Gotta Get ThruThis
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